Monday, January 17, 2011

The Reason Why I Haven't Been Around...

Hello Everyone and Happy New Year Wishes To All!

I've been meaning to post a note regarding my absence but no matter how many times I tried, I wasn't able to do anything that made sense. My cousin passed away suddenly right before Christmas and I haven't been myself for a while.
We were very close throughout childhood and as adults, my cousin was like the sister that I never had, almost like my mom in some cases and most of all, my best friend. My entire family is still reeling from our sudden lost and the past few days (or weeks) have been very painful. I never knew that losing someone so close to me could be this painful, I've cried buckets of tears wondering why her? I know that God has his reason for everything and I'm really trying to come terms and get a grip on life itself.
When I woke up today, I decided that today was the day to take life by the horns and deal with my pain by dealing with life itself. My husband and the kids have been understanding to some degree and I can tell by their faces that they are happy to see me coming back around.
I hope that you all can forgive me but I wasn't in any shape to do too much of anything, I tried but when old memories got in the way, I just fell apart and retreated to my bed.
I finally finished my card for Wednesday's challenge and it took me forever to finish it but I hung in there and managed a card that I can live with.
Well...enough gabbing for me, I'm going to take a hot shower and get ready for bed, today has been a long one.

Hugs
Risa:)

*My Christmas post was created a week before Christmas and pre-scheduled, I should have said something before hand, but I didn't have the strength...the shock was too much to handle.


10 comments:

Korin said...

Oh, Risa, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I am a "lurker" on your blog (I subscribe to the email feed) and I always enjoy seeing your work. Please know that you will be in my prayers as you cope with this tragic loss. God does have a purpose for everything and although we often do not understand, He always has our best interests at heart. May you rest in His strength and comfort and find the peace that only He can bring.

Much love,
Korin

debby4000 said...

I'm sorry you lost someone who was obviously so close to your heart.
Sending hugs.
luv
Debby

Chrisd said...

So sad to hear about your cousin. Sudden losses seem to be the hardest to handle. Take care of yourself. Keeping you in my thoughts. hugs

Beth Norman said...

I'm so sorry to hear of your news. It is so ssd and I know you are missing your cousin. We will be right here when you are feeling better.

hugs,

Beth

Brenda said...

Wow Risa, how terrible. Thoughts are with you and your family

Tracy said...

Risa,

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. You are in my thoughts & prayers.

{{{Hugs}}}
Tracy

Samantha J Designs (Wife2TJ) said...

I am so sorry for your loss ((((HUGS))))

I can imagine you needed some time to heal. Especially when it's someone who means so much to you.


((((HUGS))))

Lisette Morris said...

Risa, So sorry for your loss. Our families prayers and with you and your family. Hugs, Lisette

Teri said...

Hey Risa, so sorry to read about your loss. Please take care of yourself. I'm still adjusting to life after mom left us one year ago and sometimes we need to take a break from our daiy routine to sort out our thoughts. I'm glad that you are getting back to your routine, take care! Looking forward to more beautiful creations by you! hugs, Teri

Lauren said...

Hugs Risa! I'm sorry for your loss.